I have been thinking about my career path which i would undertake if i choose bio engineering/ chemical engineering. However, my project was already decided with emphasis on cell biology and probably system biology wherby i need to know how to use some of the programmes... Nevertheless, I have already have some idea what I am going to do after i grad; attached 2 yrs either in overseas uni as research fellow or 2 yrs locally in one of the a star agency which focus more on biomed like GSI or BTI. Afterwhich, I would do research until i hate it then probably become a teacher in nie or a lecturer in poly or maybe become a civil servant in one of the ministries like MOH or statutory board like AVA or HSA. Then slowly i would be retiring from the workforce and focus more on enjoying life coz i believe lab life would be about spending time reading journals and doing experiment which for my case now is, growing of cells.
However, if i didnt put in effort for the 4 yrs, esp these 2 yrs, the goal in front of me which is within my reach now would come to a naught and become a dream. Hence, when sch officially starts, I shall tell myself one impt thing; dont think of anything now, just focus and focus more for this is the path which i had chosen and there is no turning back now.No regrets. No blaming of anyone. This is my decision.

HOT HOT HOT

Had a lunch date with mf at lot one b4 making my way to cck swimming complex. It is surprisingly nt crowded. haha...i chose the right day i guess. I love the waves in the pool. The water is cool compared to the hot weather. Anyway, after soaking in the pool for approximately 2h, I have to get out of the pool or my body cannot take it (wrinkled). While i was on my way to the bus stop, I can literally feel the HEAT. sth is wrong with the weather! wat is happening to the world. i do hope to get back to the pool again but i know it is impossible. With a exhausted body, i made my way home. U wud have nv guess who i saw on the bus (190)....

Reflection

How have I spent my holidays? This is the question that has been popping in my mind ever since the start of this week. Most probably is due to the last week of my holiday. From next week onwards, I would have to move on to a new phase of my life, probably the most important phase of my life up till now. There should be no regrets, no looking back and what remains is only perseverance and motivation. I must bear in mind to complete it no matter wat! Back to the question post, I feel that it is quite a well-spent holiday. I had a fun time hanging out with my dear friends. Every hang out is satisfied and happy. It make my days shine and I have become happier as a result. I hope that I would still have these wonderful times even after i begin this new phase of life.
Reflecting on how I have gone through my undergraduate years, I can only comment that I havent been really mature in handling matters. In some way or another, I had not been careful in my actions and unintentionally hurt those close around me.I am not good with words but I can sincerely say that I really didnt mean it. Sometimes, I wanted to apologise or show my care and concern and get my feelings across, but somehow, the words are stuck in my mouth and the consequences that is brought to myself is a broken and guilty heart. The dilemma has tortured me for a very long time. I hate myself for the lack of courage to speak up and choose to remain silent and ignorant about it. At other times, I would just become moody and refused to speak up. Again, I didnt mean to hurt anyone. I promise I will be more frank but do not run away from me. haha.I am really really thankful for all my friends' support and concern. Every encouragement is received and remembered, which had given me the strength to carry on and be what I am now. I must say that I am sorry that I am sometimes a bit of naggy and likes to grumble. I am not an old woman yet and I am already grumpy. I shouldnt be selfish and ask all of u to hear my grumbles in 10, 20 or even infinity years down the road. However, I really hope that this special friendship bond will not break and last for eternity whereby we would chat on the phone/msn often and maybe have high tea and shake legs in some place and reminisce and laugh at the moments during schooling years. I would just be wat I am (hopefully more out-spoken, be a better person)now even after infinity years. I would not want to be changed and moulded by the ugly competitive world outside but to be identified and remain as a playful and childish mh known to u all.

Ultimatum promo!

OMG! When i reach at 3.10pm, ps was crowded. Elves were seated in front. i think i am 2-3 rows behind of them and was blocked by photographers. Nevertheless, i was surprised to see that there is already an event b4 ultimatum event. I do not bother to take pics though. I was basically listening and waiting for 4pm. at around 3.40pm, Paige chua was up on the stage. Again, I was surprised. She is fisherman's sweet spokesperson. there were some activities and i took one or two pic and again, waiting for the arrival of ultimatum casts. They screen a 15min video which i could nt see at all becoz i was blocked by people. Finally, after the video, the casts arrive. YAHOO! elvin is so shuai! along with other 12 actors and actresses they went up on stage. I was not paying attention to their intro becoz i was busy trying to take good pics of elvin. i was shocked when they said over le and i look at my watch which shows only 4.30pm. Luckily there was a hand-shaking session! that's the way to go! haha. Was queuing up patiently for my turn and the moment arrived! Elvin was standing in the middle. I manage to say "hello" softly b4 elvin but after i had shaken elvin's magical hands, i was in a daze. I didnt know wat i was doing for the rest of the handshake and i feel a bit sorry for the last actress becoz i was looking for exit from the stage and did not look at her at all. Alas, it was a very worthwhile experience. They said thank you for ur support and all of them smiled and shook my hands. yep, a fruitful one. haha!

SIAN

Sian is the best word to describe the mood i am in now! 4MC module varies in the workload. Just like this sem, i took 2 contrasting modules. Organic module; is complex with versatility (a lot of memory work; no wonder only 20+ people which is inclusive of a few yr 3 students took this module out of 150 people in yr 4) and trace analysis; with standard eqns. Advanced organic and spectroscopy module is only lv 4000 organic module available this semester in sch yet there are only 20+ people who take it? on the contrary, trace analysis has 70+ people taking it? From the other point of view, those who take organic fyp may take trace analysis; i know a few friends who do so. But, i have yet to witness analytical fyp students taking up organic module. Correct me if I am wrong.I believe that these 2 modules are vastly different in the workload even though both are 4MCs each.

I am really envious of those who can afford to slack until next week. Same major, different fate.

slacking days are back!

haha...I have never felt light-headed b4. Probably fyp has came to an end. I think the most torturous part is waiting for the presentation. Had headache, sore throat during the presentation week and the worst thing is the sore throat worsened during the presentation day. Hence, after the ppt, i had to visit the doc in sch.
I have told myself that i will slack during weekend after my ppt, which i did by chatting on msn on the fri nite and finishing up the 25 episodes long 古靈精探 over the weekend. It is a mixture of comedy, suspense and romance. I prefer the suspense part the most of coz. I had a few good laughs at some of the scenes. However, the disappointing part is the ending of the show. I hate it when the ending is terrible because after watching for 25 ep (= abt 20hrs?) and this is the kind of ending they want to give? It feels like wasting the time of "watching" this "story". Nevertheless, I do enjoy the suspense part though.

Bored

HAI............why my presentation so late one! friday somemore.haha...S I A N. anyway, i think i have been wasting these few days. Think coz so long nv really idle whole day liao. so when idle one day, my engine stop and refuse to start. muahaha.