Finally one last paper for this sem

Phew...It has been a tough month I would say. It is not easy to learn chemical engineering from scratch. I have to put in more efforts than my undergrad years and hope that my effort will be paid off when i can get at least a B for all my modules. So far, i think (I think only la) i am the average group (gathering from feedbacks on the paper from the rest). Mathematical engineering had a tough examination which really caught me by surprise. He came up with quite a large % of matlab questions which i didnt have the time to really figure out wat is going on. haha. U know, I already have to do mathematical stuff which was not an emphasis in my undergraduate years. Even basic notation, I have long 4gotten them. Besides, I have to make use of these short months to grasp new concepts (concepts which were introduced in undergrad chem engineer). It is tough for me i would say, even to catch up with the rest. If i can get at least a B for all my modules, I can imagine now that this satisfaction would be a lot greater than what i have attained after my recent graduation. This would be more meaningful and could really affirm whether I am really worthy...

Just recently, I heard from my senior (one yr senior) cum friend (dinner buddy) that she discussed with the postdoc from lab and had planned what i should do after exam. I was told about their plans by the postdoc and he said asap gather the info and do the expt. haha. Didnt expect that I have to chiong lab so early (most probably next day after my exam and research for materials on the last day of my exam) though I had in mind that I would like to do the project that I proposed as well as the project continuation from my senior.I do not know whether I should be happy or sad. haha. I really want to help my senior after understanding her situation and somemhow i feel weird that they are already planning what i should do even before my exam is over.

A lesson learnt

Today had the 2nd quiz for mathematical engineering. We are seated at the seminar rm while doing the quiz. My neck and back was hurting from overly bending my head just to write the answers. I was not thinking straight when i reached the 2nd question and i just skipped the finding of matrix to the power of 100 and just solved halfway; matrix to the power of one. After finishing a long computational qs 3, i couldnt bear it and i just handed in the answers though I still have lotsa time left.My head was thinking, that question only 4 marks, if i manage to complete it, i would get 4 marks, if not, i just have 2 marks deducted and this could save my neck. I didn't know i wud regret later because after the others come back to the office, it seems like most could do it. Jialat, I should have sat there and think abt the qs and just ignore the uncomfortable seat. I have forgotten this is no longer undergraduate studies. This is postgrad studies which everyone wud try and maximise the marks. I have learnt my lesson, I should not be complacent for being able to do all the qs besides that 2 marks which i refuse to think. I should have sat there and think abt it. This is a postgrad war, is no longer the familiar war that i had in undergrad. I shall keep this in mind for my final exam. I should think as hard as possible and not dismiss any qs as a worthless qs to think. Luckily, I learnt this during the quiz and not during the exam :)