Yeah!

This is the last week i wud be going back to ICES. I think the new experimental method works. Hopefully the paper can finally be published (after we have amended according to wat the reviewers want). This would have a rather big impact on me becoz my ex-boss said the publisher he submitting to is a good publisher compared to the other publishers. I learn one new thing in the field of research; even papers gt category; good or normal paper. That is what categorised a researcher whether he or she performs good enuff (eg. innovative, practical)? This is tough sia. Coz initially I thought if there are papers published, it would be good enough.....So, in other words, even if there are "normal" papers published, it is only the minimum standard that a researcher should have??? omg.... I need more innovation now.....

argh!!!!~~~~

Deep super sian!!!!!!! Now all the tests are coming and somehow the assignments are given every once in 2 weeks and they are all graded.zzzzzzzz. I thought research is more impt????

Great...

Today went go karting with hx and wc at ang mio kio. The response is good i guess. I had a car-accident during the go karting....1st time, the go kart in front of me suddenly stop and my 1st instinct is to siam him and bump on to the barrier at the side. The 2nd time, was a more serious bump. Same place, at the curve end. The person beside me suddenly overtake me at the u-turn. I wanted to siam him because i scared later i bump onto him due to my poor driving skill and yah, my instinct was to siam and bump hard onto the barrier. I bumped so hard that i felt intense pain at my rib cage and my helmet flew off though the buckle is still connected. I dont know why i didnt press the brake hard enough. Probably because i scared later I may jerk and experience pain. Sigh. There are a number of personnels who ask me "am i ok?". Well, I said i am okay but actually my ribcage was a bit injured from the bumping. I think I have a shock. I didnt have the mood to appreciate my lunch and was rubbing my chest. I tried taking deep breathing and could feel the pain. Thankfully, when i reached home, I felt much better, except the left shoulder where i think is the most intense area and a bit of pain at the back of my shoulder. I rub some ailment, hoping to relieve the pain. I should be fine by tomorrow. Not to worry. Haha. Old le, need longer time to recover i guess.

Hmm.....I am thinking about buying medical insurance. Any recommendation, anyone?

Packed weekend

Just came back from bugis. Why am I so late though I have things to do at home? because I have promised a friend that I would go and watch the ntu dance show by hall 4 at nanyang auditorium. It is a dance show that is talking about a person's 21st birthday. The show is nt bad just that the ending a bit confusing. Anyway, it has been a while since i go and watch dance show so i think it is worth it. Thanks to my friend for the tix. haha.

Tomorrow would be go kart day! I hope i can finish my preparation. sigh! This time I really hope that there is miracles!!!! Be successful in the separation of the products. PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Stressed

Oh great. I have to go back to ICES for monday and friday as told by my previous sup of fyp (2 days per week). I may get slaughtered by my current sup. I need to separate the products and purify it, if not the paper wont be published. hai....i have tried 1 month during fyp and it doesnt work. Hope that this time it works.

Now i can feel that the days are getting more packed by the week.....

Miracles

Dunno why this week gt so many shocking news. Today, i received yet another sms from another ex supervisor of fyp. She asked me whether i know that I have to discuss with my sup and how I have been. Haha. I was quite touched of my supervisors' responses since I am no longer their student and yet they are still so friendly and kind to me:) Attended 1 lecture and 2 seminars today. Note that the seminars are not relevant to my project but we have to attend at least 10 seminars a year if not we cant get stipend! haha. The seminar is the presentation done by the yr 3 and 4's. I envy them and was wondering when would it be my turn......

Before I went home, I was passing by my lab and decided to go in and say hello to the undergrads. Just when I wanted to make my way back home, I was asked whether I mind to be their advisor for this i gem project. I told them immediately that better dont choose me of coz since I have less experience in this field but they said nvm they need 2 pg names to be submitted. Haha. of coz i warned them of me being no help and recommended them btr pgs in the same lab. lol. They said just in case one nt free, the other can come during weekend to "oversee". Hmm...this reminds me of being a figure head so yah, I give in and said okay to put my name.


I cant take another shocking news......

Omg

Woah. I received a phone call ystd from my previous sup from ICES for my fyp. The 1st thing he asked was "do u still rmb me?" I was very surprised that he called me. Later I learnt that he is submitting the project that i did as a review for publishing. Omg. Really shocking. I sent my email to him as requested. Today he sent me an email asking when I am free. Being detailed, I told him when i have the lesson. Anyway, I havent start my project yet as in experimentally. Journals wise, I have read up and have a rough idea of wat i have to do. Back to the main topic, I just saw his reply that I have a meeting with him on friday. Which means i would have to go to ICES again on friday. Haha. I hope I am of help to him. *cross my fingers.

Today I logged into my nus email and saw this:

Dear Tan Mui Hua



We refer to our offer letter dated 22 April 2009.



Till to-date, we have yet to hear from you. We therefore assume that you are no longer interested in the offer. The offer will thus be withdrawn with immediate effect.



Yours sincerely,

Jennifer Phang (Ms) : Graduate studies Office, Faculty of Engineering :: National University of Singapore

Haha. This is weird. I guess this kind of email couldnt be replied. I thought it is defaulted to have withdrawn if i miss the dateline for so long and even if they want to clarify they should have called. I find this email redundant.

Updated

Feel real guilty this weekend. I planned to read up on matlab, but i nv did and end up watching the whole series of 20 episodes of "love exchange" hk drama. It is a mystery thriller. The reason that I even go and search for this show online is becoz i watched it from starhub for the 1st 2 episodes and was tempted by it. hehe. I must admit that the front episodes are good and wud catch ur attention, but for the later part of episodes, the show becomes draggy and irritating.

Today, I left ntu at 9pm. I was nt doing experiment. I have not started my project yet. I was only figuring out how to use matlab to do the assignment that has to be submitted on the following day. With a tired look yet satisfactory face ( solve half of the assignement), I made my way home. I had some green bean soup. yum yum, while i was watching hei she hui. A very funny variety show :) Actually, the reason why i blog is becoz i saw my front toe is blueblack (from the jumpings in macritchie). Just want to complain. haha. Yah, I know, zi4 zuo4 zi4 shou4. Anyway, I wanted to thank hx for the company on saturday. It was fun:) my first experience in STGCC. hehe. I like cosplays and the cute toys. How i wish there are more varieties of the toys-in-capsule, like the riceball keychain i bought from toysrus. This reminds me, I look 4ward to the gokart experience too. I have not played go kart since I am a child. Being mature now, I dont have such experience anymore:P

Just to update to my dearest friends, dont worry abt me. I am fine and have made a few friends here(a rare singaporean and prcs). Just to add on, i think today i am really crazy. I went to the lab and was talking crappy stuff which made the korean phd student ask me whether this insanity is my truth self? she said what happen to me. lol. I denied of coz!

Some pictures of CBE

My desk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


The name not i paste one...

I have been thinking about my career path which i would undertake if i choose bio engineering/ chemical engineering. However, my project was already decided with emphasis on cell biology and probably system biology wherby i need to know how to use some of the programmes... Nevertheless, I have already have some idea what I am going to do after i grad; attached 2 yrs either in overseas uni as research fellow or 2 yrs locally in one of the a star agency which focus more on biomed like GSI or BTI. Afterwhich, I would do research until i hate it then probably become a teacher in nie or a lecturer in poly or maybe become a civil servant in one of the ministries like MOH or statutory board like AVA or HSA. Then slowly i would be retiring from the workforce and focus more on enjoying life coz i believe lab life would be about spending time reading journals and doing experiment which for my case now is, growing of cells.
However, if i didnt put in effort for the 4 yrs, esp these 2 yrs, the goal in front of me which is within my reach now would come to a naught and become a dream. Hence, when sch officially starts, I shall tell myself one impt thing; dont think of anything now, just focus and focus more for this is the path which i had chosen and there is no turning back now.No regrets. No blaming of anyone. This is my decision.