Why am i in school on a sunday?

As the title suggests, probably u can guess why i end up in school on a sunday. I have to grow cells before i can start the expt on monday. If not, I would waste another day again. But luckily I did. I was shocked when i came back to lab and only realise that my medium is contaminated with cells! I was at a loss to what i can do because i need the medium to grow the cells. I thought of various ways to solve it but none of it met my expectation. I planned to change my schedule but I am doubtful that it would be good. Sigh. Luckily my savior came in, postdoc! He came back with the autoclave keys and i am very thankful of him for helping me to find it. Savior! haha. So, i can progress smoothly; 6pm innoculate cells and 10pm innoculate another batch of cells =)
Still, not many people work on sunday and I feel kind of lonely. haha.

Should I or should I not?

haha. Yesterday's meeting was funny. I shouldnt have prepared something for my presentation because my exam ended on wednesday and i think my sup didnt expect me to do anything much on thursday either and so, he skipped my turn and went into his fav opening line for end of presentation " Any lab matters to discuss?" Perhaps my senior saw that i uploaded ppt slides on the google docs and she said "mh has done something for the presentation." I quickly said nvm dont need. Then sup was saying "really? ok". Then yah i presented. Actually during the postdoc presentation he mention about the project being splitted up by my senior and me. Then boss was saying "mh are u ready?". of coz i said " erm...yes". But my thoughts were "Thought I already started straight after exam?hmm?". After he was surprised i prepared sth for the presentation then i know why he is shocked, coz he nv thought that i was so 'eager' to do lab straight after exam. haha. I scalded my index finger for nth.

I failed my expt on friday but i found out the reason for the failure and the postdoc recommended me a solution and yep. Of coz i was happy. My schedule was to complete the assay on friday and monday can start measuring the activity of supernatant of cells. But the problem is, I dont know where are the strains. Then i need to get single colony which takes 2 days and then overnight dilution which takes another day. then i cant start on monday !!!!! If I can get agar plates with these strains from my senior, then i can fit into my schedule perfectly. The problem is sunday i must come back no matter wat. 1st is to prepare the stuff (innoculate cells) and then to synthesise AI-2 (because i keep diluting, and try whatever methods that come to my mind to improve my results and finish up the AI-2 that i synthesised on thursday) for re-doing luminesecence assay. I have to finish watever task that was allocated to me by next week!!!! (I havent go through 1st trail yet, being inexperienced I scared that I may make a mistake along the way)

Finally one last paper for this sem

Phew...It has been a tough month I would say. It is not easy to learn chemical engineering from scratch. I have to put in more efforts than my undergrad years and hope that my effort will be paid off when i can get at least a B for all my modules. So far, i think (I think only la) i am the average group (gathering from feedbacks on the paper from the rest). Mathematical engineering had a tough examination which really caught me by surprise. He came up with quite a large % of matlab questions which i didnt have the time to really figure out wat is going on. haha. U know, I already have to do mathematical stuff which was not an emphasis in my undergraduate years. Even basic notation, I have long 4gotten them. Besides, I have to make use of these short months to grasp new concepts (concepts which were introduced in undergrad chem engineer). It is tough for me i would say, even to catch up with the rest. If i can get at least a B for all my modules, I can imagine now that this satisfaction would be a lot greater than what i have attained after my recent graduation. This would be more meaningful and could really affirm whether I am really worthy...

Just recently, I heard from my senior (one yr senior) cum friend (dinner buddy) that she discussed with the postdoc from lab and had planned what i should do after exam. I was told about their plans by the postdoc and he said asap gather the info and do the expt. haha. Didnt expect that I have to chiong lab so early (most probably next day after my exam and research for materials on the last day of my exam) though I had in mind that I would like to do the project that I proposed as well as the project continuation from my senior.I do not know whether I should be happy or sad. haha. I really want to help my senior after understanding her situation and somemhow i feel weird that they are already planning what i should do even before my exam is over.

A lesson learnt

Today had the 2nd quiz for mathematical engineering. We are seated at the seminar rm while doing the quiz. My neck and back was hurting from overly bending my head just to write the answers. I was not thinking straight when i reached the 2nd question and i just skipped the finding of matrix to the power of 100 and just solved halfway; matrix to the power of one. After finishing a long computational qs 3, i couldnt bear it and i just handed in the answers though I still have lotsa time left.My head was thinking, that question only 4 marks, if i manage to complete it, i would get 4 marks, if not, i just have 2 marks deducted and this could save my neck. I didn't know i wud regret later because after the others come back to the office, it seems like most could do it. Jialat, I should have sat there and think abt the qs and just ignore the uncomfortable seat. I have forgotten this is no longer undergraduate studies. This is postgrad studies which everyone wud try and maximise the marks. I have learnt my lesson, I should not be complacent for being able to do all the qs besides that 2 marks which i refuse to think. I should have sat there and think abt it. This is a postgrad war, is no longer the familiar war that i had in undergrad. I shall keep this in mind for my final exam. I should think as hard as possible and not dismiss any qs as a worthless qs to think. Luckily, I learnt this during the quiz and not during the exam :)

Yeah!!! I earned myself one publication :)

Magnetic Nanoparticle Supported Second Generation Hoveyda-Grubbs Catalyst for Metathesis of Unsaturated Fatty Acid Esters
Zhu Yinghuai, Loo Kuijin, Ng Huimin, Li Chuanzhao, Ludger Paul Stubbs, Chia Fu Siong, Tan Muihua, Ship Chee Peng
Published Online: Oct 28 2009 4:23AM
Advanced Synthesis & Catalysis.

My name is there!!!! I am happy:) hehe...

:)

I thought I am doomed when i met my prof this afternoon.I happen to see him just after i open the door of the washroom. Wat a great way of meeting him....He asked me abt my coursework and i somehow bring up the topic of considering stopping labwork temporarily to study for my exam since it is just 2 weeks away. His response was, why? I explain it is for the exam prep. He asked me what about the project i am working on. sigh. I have planned to do 2 tests this week consecutively but i am not sure whether it wud be sucessful. Nevertheless, i said i shd be able to complete it by this week. He said we shall discuss later. I was kind of dumbfounded because I thought it wud be approved right away (4 core modules! and I do not have much foundation zzz)....Luckily I have gd labmates who encouraged me and gave me advices. I think I am really lucky. I really love this lab. I would not bear to say goodbye to them; I really want to work with them in the same lab throughout my 4 years...

Another tiring day

Oh my. Early in the morning at 9am, had a meeting and straightaway, I head to the lab becoz i know that purification step takes a very long time (learn from last monday's experiences). Yep, indeed. The whole day, I was walking back and forth from dirty room to my lab and back again to do sonication and at the same time, prepare some buffer solutions that required filtering. My hands are now aching from exerting much force to force the solvent through the 0.20micron-sized pores of the syringe filter and indeed I have made a few litres of different buffers for FPLC. I know something is wrong with my hand and my guess was affirmed when i saw my red hands and a mark (created by forcing the syringe down). haha. I just came back home from sch. really really tired. No time to enjoy my meals and have to dabao and gobble down my food.

Surrogates

Surrogates is a nice movie if anyone of u like science fiction =) creative concept. I enjoyed the movie very much because the story is original i would say.

Tired

Today, I woke up at 7.30am and leave house for sch to do labwork. I guess today I was early because some of the pg rooms are dark and I get to open the lab for the 1st time. I reached sch b4 9am which was surprising. After some preparations, I made my way back to my lab to start the work today (Saturday!). Manage to successfully incubate and harvest the cells until 7++pm and left for dinner. Reached home at ard 8plus with a tired mind and soul. Phew. Today I have spent 10hrs in lab =) haha.. at least this saturday, I have utilised it properly unlike the last weekend when i did nothing....

celebrations-mid autumn festival

Last friday was an amazing day. Although morning had a group meeting; presentation as usual, the follow up events made it a special day. In the afternoon, my sup treated us to palatte in ntu as a welcome lunch for us "freshies"; me and the other iran gal in the lab. I should have ordered grilled fish, but I, being guilty, dare not do that and chose a chicken cutlet instead. Afterall, I am not used to being treated. It is not comfortable at all!!! Anyway, we had a long lunch and was more like getting-to-know us session. My sup brought his wife with him and I feel that they really are compatible. The way they talk and their outlook matched. During the lunch, I was stunned by a question from my prof which i could nt answer and am embarassed; " Which place do u recommend to go in singapore. Must go places?" haha. yah. Actually i think it is fun to have this kind of gathering. lol. Anyway, I was late for the evening gathering with my piggy friends. The reason that I was late is because i left my stuff; sparklers and bomb bags in the office!!! I was in the bus 179, abt 4 bus stops away from my office. I had to alight and walk back to the office. Perhaps this is the retribution of eating fried chicken. Afterwhich, i made my way to sembawang and joined my piggy friends for dinner. We went sembawang park by car (all thanks to a piggy friend) and the 1st thing we did when we found a spot is to EAT mooncakes; cranberry, green tea, yam, banana. EAT has become our piggy club's motto i guess. Then we were playing the candles and rearrange the word "PIGGY". NICE. Took some photos with sparklers on our hands. Before we left the park, we walked back to the carpark, holding onto the lanterns. Although, sweaty, it was a very fun experience and i had enjoyed myself throughly (esp when blowing bubbles and throwing bomb bags to 'disturb' my friends). hehe.

This monday wasnt a lucky day. I spent the whole day in lab sonication + FPLC + desalting ; 13 hrs+ accumulated and thought that i may missed the last bus because i left lab at ard 11.10pm. phew! I didnt. I was super tired that day.

Tuesday morning was a day i look forward to coz i was going to change my hairstyle.1ST time perming my hair. I regretted to have medium curl instead of large curl.... =(

yeahhhhhhhhhhh

This afternoon, I recieved a news from my ex supervisor. She told me that the paper is finally published in advanced synthesis and catalysis. I am happy... My very 1st paper.hehe.

Ytsd, after lab, meet up with my friend to watch a movie called "the ugly truth" at JP. It is 4-star rated movie. There are indeed some funny parts here and there but some i dont get the meaning. Oh well. It has a nice storyline i guess:) In the meantime while waiting for the showtime, we walk ard JP and play arcade; daytona and gun game. It is fun and relaxing:)

Recess week...NOT!

I thought recess week means that next week i dont need to come everyday lol. I think just it is a wishful thinking. After my weekly group meeting today, my sup hinted me and the other iran gal from same yr as me but she is from BIE that next week is recess week and wat is our plan. Actually i dunhave much plan and just to go back lab maybe 3 days for next week. Then yah, I was told that I have to work on a mini project(a subset of my senior phd project). After the meeting, I had a mini-weekly meet up lunch with wendy at canteen a. Aftter lunch, I made my way to my office. To my shock, when i was waiting for my lift to get to B4 to my office, I felt my hp vibrating. I was wondering who would call me at this time and took a look at the caller. I was of coz startled; it is my boss. He asked me whether i am free now and can see him in the office. Along the way to his office, i was pondering over wat deeds i have done to upset him or anger him. Reluctantly i went to his office and was once again, greeted by a smiling face. He asked me about my plan and luckily i have typed out my workplan immediately after the group meeting. Monday:innoculation, tuesday: incubate and harvest, Wednesday: sonication and purification. Then he told me not to work on staphy first as it is more dangerous. So yah, I would be working with a 2nd yr phd korean student on E coli and he said maybe at 2nd sem then i can work on staphylococcus. So my project focus need to be rearranged and change species 1st but quite true, coz the journals i found mostly are working on Ecoli then maybe it would be easier for me. haha. Then afterwhich, he ask me abt my coursework, followed by my family. Phew! I was only scaring myself. Back to the office i was waiting happily for the time to eat ice cream buffet. I love macadamia nuts, super lemon and soursop ( i would have love green tea and lime sherbert if they served them:() icecream. The apple tart and walnut cheesecake i like too. chocolate cakes are soft. The quality is premium:). Then the 4 of us, PP, YM, WC and me meet up with hx to have dinner at cwp. We played arcade and walk ard. It was a well-spent day. I enjoy every minute of the gathering with good friends:)

Dedicate this song to all my dear friends :)

By Chirstina: I Turn To You

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

Meaningful songs

By Westlife: FOOL AGAIN
Tell me, what's the secret that you've been hiding?
And who's gonna take my place?
I should have seen it coming,
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over

Chorus:
Can't believe that I'm a fool again
I thought this love would never end,
how was I to know?
You never told me
Can't believe that I'm a fool again,
and I who thought you were my friend,
how was I to know?
You never told me

Baby, you should've called me,
when you were lonely,
when you needed me to be there
Sadly, you never gave me
too many chances to show you
how much I care
Ooh, should have seen it coming,
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over

Chorus

About the pain and the tears
Ooh, If I could,
I would, turn back the time
Ooh yeah I should have seen it coming
I should have read the signs
Anyway, I guess it's over

I find this song very meaningful,especially when I am very sad. This can help me relieve some of the pain by singing out loud or by singing it in my mind.
There is another song that brings me memory. I was hurt once and believe it will happen all over again(She has forgotten wat was promised during the serious talk or maybe she dont mean it and 4got; this could mean a small matter for others but to me, it has crossed the line. One chance already granted but it happens again). Anyway, this is referring to the recent period of time (this yr) when i was feeling moody and wanted a fresh start. I would keep repeating this song and tell myself that I have to be brave and move on.Otherwise, I just keep my mind occupied with projects and homework which deter me from thinking about it.

By VANESSA HUDGENS - GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY

I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
[Chorus]
I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
[end of chorus]
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..
[chorus]
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

and what about me?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

so
I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

If not, the song by britney spears; "Stronger" could help to rebuild my confidence and move on. If it is meant to be, it would be yours. If it is not, no use holding on. This is my philosopy but as a friend i dont wish that any of my friends here, pick up this kind of attitude. This is highly discouraged. Back to the topic, these songs are my life saviour and contribute partly to the recovery of my mood. There are some other songs that i feel that it is meaningful but this would make the entry look very wordy. Anyway, hope all my dear friends are doing fine and enjoy your looooong weekends. You all deserve it!

interesting event

I saw this in one of my emails; pretty interesting:)

Mooncake Making with TUF

Brought to you by TUF, Tabernacle University Fellowship. We are a church-based association, made up of a bunch of fun-loving people, whose purpose is to bring you the love, joy and peace of Christ!
Ever made mooncakes before? Join us to make traditional snowskin mooncakes! And you can bring some home to share with family & friends over the Mooncake Festival!

Look for us on the 24th Sept, Thursday, 630pm at Nanyang House Seminar Room 1.

For more information on TUF and this event, please contact Ethel at 96616905.

Had a Happy Day:)

Morning, there is the transport phenomena lesson which covers 2 hrs lecture and 1 h tutorial. 1h tutorial is on Matlab; solving mass transfer equations by integration by grids (Mol; method of line). haha. Interesting though. Every lesson has been an exponential learning experience for me. Those rules are interesting. haha. Afterwhich, I had lunch with a phd student, same batch as me (singaporean). Then she went and sit in for the seminars because we are supposed to complete 10 seminars per yr, while i go to the lab and pick up some skills and to provide a helping hand to my seniors. Too absorbed in the lab, I was nearly late for the meeting with mf and told her to postpone 15mins more. My legs nearly broke. haha. Had dinner at pastamania where i had spiced fish baked cheese pasta and mf had the combo set with a 7inch chicken and mushroom pizza. Most of the time, we were not browsing the shops at all. Too busy with the catch up (cant see her for sooo long). Gonna miss her definitely. Then after chatting while walking, we decide to sit in gelaro shop and had our icecream. Yum Yum! Love the chocolate cookie icecream:) The time flew by and it was already 9plus. No wonder the shops are closing. Alas, I had a great time and I am going to miss her....

my first pg test

haha....I must blog it down. Because today's test is the 1st pg test of my life. It is the engineering maths test. I am quite happy after the test ended. :)

Had a satisfied rest day:)

After i woke up at 10plus, i switched on tv and watch tv show. haha. I deserved a big rest lol. Coz monday is war day again since tuesday is engineering maths mid term test!!!!! omg! haha. I have no idea wat qs they will set. Could be proving qs. Could be calculation. I have no idea. So had a short jog of abt 15mins in the afternoon. Afterwhich, I rest for a while b4 bathing. I think I have a fruitful week :)

Happy day:)

today's presentation was a success. Supervisor complimented me for my project plan. Was really really happy especially when he said that he nv thought it b4 :) Now I feel that reading so many journals was worthwhile.

Packed week AGAIN

Pardon me for complaining. Think I am old le, that's y i am so naggy now. haha. Yah, I have too much hw stacking, waiting for me to do. Then there is the research project. My prof juz gave me a topic; metabolic engineering with stapylococcus. So basically, I have to find my interest, which my boss had told me, and eventually find the aim of my project and the focus of the experiments. So, in other words, I have to plan, design (to be creative and think of innovative way to do expt), and prosecute it. Different sups have different styles i guess. I heard some sups tell the students wat to do and give them proper directions. Any deviations, need to tell their sup. haha....I hope next sem gets btr. I must gambatte. Cannot throw nus's face or the chemists' face.

Yeah!

This is the last week i wud be going back to ICES. I think the new experimental method works. Hopefully the paper can finally be published (after we have amended according to wat the reviewers want). This would have a rather big impact on me becoz my ex-boss said the publisher he submitting to is a good publisher compared to the other publishers. I learn one new thing in the field of research; even papers gt category; good or normal paper. That is what categorised a researcher whether he or she performs good enuff (eg. innovative, practical)? This is tough sia. Coz initially I thought if there are papers published, it would be good enough.....So, in other words, even if there are "normal" papers published, it is only the minimum standard that a researcher should have??? omg.... I need more innovation now.....

argh!!!!~~~~

Deep super sian!!!!!!! Now all the tests are coming and somehow the assignments are given every once in 2 weeks and they are all graded.zzzzzzzz. I thought research is more impt????

Great...

Today went go karting with hx and wc at ang mio kio. The response is good i guess. I had a car-accident during the go karting....1st time, the go kart in front of me suddenly stop and my 1st instinct is to siam him and bump on to the barrier at the side. The 2nd time, was a more serious bump. Same place, at the curve end. The person beside me suddenly overtake me at the u-turn. I wanted to siam him because i scared later i bump onto him due to my poor driving skill and yah, my instinct was to siam and bump hard onto the barrier. I bumped so hard that i felt intense pain at my rib cage and my helmet flew off though the buckle is still connected. I dont know why i didnt press the brake hard enough. Probably because i scared later I may jerk and experience pain. Sigh. There are a number of personnels who ask me "am i ok?". Well, I said i am okay but actually my ribcage was a bit injured from the bumping. I think I have a shock. I didnt have the mood to appreciate my lunch and was rubbing my chest. I tried taking deep breathing and could feel the pain. Thankfully, when i reached home, I felt much better, except the left shoulder where i think is the most intense area and a bit of pain at the back of my shoulder. I rub some ailment, hoping to relieve the pain. I should be fine by tomorrow. Not to worry. Haha. Old le, need longer time to recover i guess.

Hmm.....I am thinking about buying medical insurance. Any recommendation, anyone?

Packed weekend

Just came back from bugis. Why am I so late though I have things to do at home? because I have promised a friend that I would go and watch the ntu dance show by hall 4 at nanyang auditorium. It is a dance show that is talking about a person's 21st birthday. The show is nt bad just that the ending a bit confusing. Anyway, it has been a while since i go and watch dance show so i think it is worth it. Thanks to my friend for the tix. haha.

Tomorrow would be go kart day! I hope i can finish my preparation. sigh! This time I really hope that there is miracles!!!! Be successful in the separation of the products. PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Stressed

Oh great. I have to go back to ICES for monday and friday as told by my previous sup of fyp (2 days per week). I may get slaughtered by my current sup. I need to separate the products and purify it, if not the paper wont be published. hai....i have tried 1 month during fyp and it doesnt work. Hope that this time it works.

Now i can feel that the days are getting more packed by the week.....

Miracles

Dunno why this week gt so many shocking news. Today, i received yet another sms from another ex supervisor of fyp. She asked me whether i know that I have to discuss with my sup and how I have been. Haha. I was quite touched of my supervisors' responses since I am no longer their student and yet they are still so friendly and kind to me:) Attended 1 lecture and 2 seminars today. Note that the seminars are not relevant to my project but we have to attend at least 10 seminars a year if not we cant get stipend! haha. The seminar is the presentation done by the yr 3 and 4's. I envy them and was wondering when would it be my turn......

Before I went home, I was passing by my lab and decided to go in and say hello to the undergrads. Just when I wanted to make my way back home, I was asked whether I mind to be their advisor for this i gem project. I told them immediately that better dont choose me of coz since I have less experience in this field but they said nvm they need 2 pg names to be submitted. Haha. of coz i warned them of me being no help and recommended them btr pgs in the same lab. lol. They said just in case one nt free, the other can come during weekend to "oversee". Hmm...this reminds me of being a figure head so yah, I give in and said okay to put my name.


I cant take another shocking news......

Omg

Woah. I received a phone call ystd from my previous sup from ICES for my fyp. The 1st thing he asked was "do u still rmb me?" I was very surprised that he called me. Later I learnt that he is submitting the project that i did as a review for publishing. Omg. Really shocking. I sent my email to him as requested. Today he sent me an email asking when I am free. Being detailed, I told him when i have the lesson. Anyway, I havent start my project yet as in experimentally. Journals wise, I have read up and have a rough idea of wat i have to do. Back to the main topic, I just saw his reply that I have a meeting with him on friday. Which means i would have to go to ICES again on friday. Haha. I hope I am of help to him. *cross my fingers.

Today I logged into my nus email and saw this:

Dear Tan Mui Hua



We refer to our offer letter dated 22 April 2009.



Till to-date, we have yet to hear from you. We therefore assume that you are no longer interested in the offer. The offer will thus be withdrawn with immediate effect.



Yours sincerely,

Jennifer Phang (Ms) : Graduate studies Office, Faculty of Engineering :: National University of Singapore

Haha. This is weird. I guess this kind of email couldnt be replied. I thought it is defaulted to have withdrawn if i miss the dateline for so long and even if they want to clarify they should have called. I find this email redundant.

Updated

Feel real guilty this weekend. I planned to read up on matlab, but i nv did and end up watching the whole series of 20 episodes of "love exchange" hk drama. It is a mystery thriller. The reason that I even go and search for this show online is becoz i watched it from starhub for the 1st 2 episodes and was tempted by it. hehe. I must admit that the front episodes are good and wud catch ur attention, but for the later part of episodes, the show becomes draggy and irritating.

Today, I left ntu at 9pm. I was nt doing experiment. I have not started my project yet. I was only figuring out how to use matlab to do the assignment that has to be submitted on the following day. With a tired look yet satisfactory face ( solve half of the assignement), I made my way home. I had some green bean soup. yum yum, while i was watching hei she hui. A very funny variety show :) Actually, the reason why i blog is becoz i saw my front toe is blueblack (from the jumpings in macritchie). Just want to complain. haha. Yah, I know, zi4 zuo4 zi4 shou4. Anyway, I wanted to thank hx for the company on saturday. It was fun:) my first experience in STGCC. hehe. I like cosplays and the cute toys. How i wish there are more varieties of the toys-in-capsule, like the riceball keychain i bought from toysrus. This reminds me, I look 4ward to the gokart experience too. I have not played go kart since I am a child. Being mature now, I dont have such experience anymore:P

Just to update to my dearest friends, dont worry abt me. I am fine and have made a few friends here(a rare singaporean and prcs). Just to add on, i think today i am really crazy. I went to the lab and was talking crappy stuff which made the korean phd student ask me whether this insanity is my truth self? she said what happen to me. lol. I denied of coz!

Some pictures of CBE

My desk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


The name not i paste one...

I have been thinking about my career path which i would undertake if i choose bio engineering/ chemical engineering. However, my project was already decided with emphasis on cell biology and probably system biology wherby i need to know how to use some of the programmes... Nevertheless, I have already have some idea what I am going to do after i grad; attached 2 yrs either in overseas uni as research fellow or 2 yrs locally in one of the a star agency which focus more on biomed like GSI or BTI. Afterwhich, I would do research until i hate it then probably become a teacher in nie or a lecturer in poly or maybe become a civil servant in one of the ministries like MOH or statutory board like AVA or HSA. Then slowly i would be retiring from the workforce and focus more on enjoying life coz i believe lab life would be about spending time reading journals and doing experiment which for my case now is, growing of cells.
However, if i didnt put in effort for the 4 yrs, esp these 2 yrs, the goal in front of me which is within my reach now would come to a naught and become a dream. Hence, when sch officially starts, I shall tell myself one impt thing; dont think of anything now, just focus and focus more for this is the path which i had chosen and there is no turning back now.No regrets. No blaming of anyone. This is my decision.

HOT HOT HOT

Had a lunch date with mf at lot one b4 making my way to cck swimming complex. It is surprisingly nt crowded. haha...i chose the right day i guess. I love the waves in the pool. The water is cool compared to the hot weather. Anyway, after soaking in the pool for approximately 2h, I have to get out of the pool or my body cannot take it (wrinkled). While i was on my way to the bus stop, I can literally feel the HEAT. sth is wrong with the weather! wat is happening to the world. i do hope to get back to the pool again but i know it is impossible. With a exhausted body, i made my way home. U wud have nv guess who i saw on the bus (190)....

Reflection

How have I spent my holidays? This is the question that has been popping in my mind ever since the start of this week. Most probably is due to the last week of my holiday. From next week onwards, I would have to move on to a new phase of my life, probably the most important phase of my life up till now. There should be no regrets, no looking back and what remains is only perseverance and motivation. I must bear in mind to complete it no matter wat! Back to the question post, I feel that it is quite a well-spent holiday. I had a fun time hanging out with my dear friends. Every hang out is satisfied and happy. It make my days shine and I have become happier as a result. I hope that I would still have these wonderful times even after i begin this new phase of life.
Reflecting on how I have gone through my undergraduate years, I can only comment that I havent been really mature in handling matters. In some way or another, I had not been careful in my actions and unintentionally hurt those close around me.I am not good with words but I can sincerely say that I really didnt mean it. Sometimes, I wanted to apologise or show my care and concern and get my feelings across, but somehow, the words are stuck in my mouth and the consequences that is brought to myself is a broken and guilty heart. The dilemma has tortured me for a very long time. I hate myself for the lack of courage to speak up and choose to remain silent and ignorant about it. At other times, I would just become moody and refused to speak up. Again, I didnt mean to hurt anyone. I promise I will be more frank but do not run away from me. haha.I am really really thankful for all my friends' support and concern. Every encouragement is received and remembered, which had given me the strength to carry on and be what I am now. I must say that I am sorry that I am sometimes a bit of naggy and likes to grumble. I am not an old woman yet and I am already grumpy. I shouldnt be selfish and ask all of u to hear my grumbles in 10, 20 or even infinity years down the road. However, I really hope that this special friendship bond will not break and last for eternity whereby we would chat on the phone/msn often and maybe have high tea and shake legs in some place and reminisce and laugh at the moments during schooling years. I would just be wat I am (hopefully more out-spoken, be a better person)now even after infinity years. I would not want to be changed and moulded by the ugly competitive world outside but to be identified and remain as a playful and childish mh known to u all.

Ultimatum promo!

OMG! When i reach at 3.10pm, ps was crowded. Elves were seated in front. i think i am 2-3 rows behind of them and was blocked by photographers. Nevertheless, i was surprised to see that there is already an event b4 ultimatum event. I do not bother to take pics though. I was basically listening and waiting for 4pm. at around 3.40pm, Paige chua was up on the stage. Again, I was surprised. She is fisherman's sweet spokesperson. there were some activities and i took one or two pic and again, waiting for the arrival of ultimatum casts. They screen a 15min video which i could nt see at all becoz i was blocked by people. Finally, after the video, the casts arrive. YAHOO! elvin is so shuai! along with other 12 actors and actresses they went up on stage. I was not paying attention to their intro becoz i was busy trying to take good pics of elvin. i was shocked when they said over le and i look at my watch which shows only 4.30pm. Luckily there was a hand-shaking session! that's the way to go! haha. Was queuing up patiently for my turn and the moment arrived! Elvin was standing in the middle. I manage to say "hello" softly b4 elvin but after i had shaken elvin's magical hands, i was in a daze. I didnt know wat i was doing for the rest of the handshake and i feel a bit sorry for the last actress becoz i was looking for exit from the stage and did not look at her at all. Alas, it was a very worthwhile experience. They said thank you for ur support and all of them smiled and shook my hands. yep, a fruitful one. haha!

SIAN

Sian is the best word to describe the mood i am in now! 4MC module varies in the workload. Just like this sem, i took 2 contrasting modules. Organic module; is complex with versatility (a lot of memory work; no wonder only 20+ people which is inclusive of a few yr 3 students took this module out of 150 people in yr 4) and trace analysis; with standard eqns. Advanced organic and spectroscopy module is only lv 4000 organic module available this semester in sch yet there are only 20+ people who take it? on the contrary, trace analysis has 70+ people taking it? From the other point of view, those who take organic fyp may take trace analysis; i know a few friends who do so. But, i have yet to witness analytical fyp students taking up organic module. Correct me if I am wrong.I believe that these 2 modules are vastly different in the workload even though both are 4MCs each.

I am really envious of those who can afford to slack until next week. Same major, different fate.

slacking days are back!

haha...I have never felt light-headed b4. Probably fyp has came to an end. I think the most torturous part is waiting for the presentation. Had headache, sore throat during the presentation week and the worst thing is the sore throat worsened during the presentation day. Hence, after the ppt, i had to visit the doc in sch.
I have told myself that i will slack during weekend after my ppt, which i did by chatting on msn on the fri nite and finishing up the 25 episodes long 古靈精探 over the weekend. It is a mixture of comedy, suspense and romance. I prefer the suspense part the most of coz. I had a few good laughs at some of the scenes. However, the disappointing part is the ending of the show. I hate it when the ending is terrible because after watching for 25 ep (= abt 20hrs?) and this is the kind of ending they want to give? It feels like wasting the time of "watching" this "story". Nevertheless, I do enjoy the suspense part though.

Bored

HAI............why my presentation so late one! friday somemore.haha...S I A N. anyway, i think i have been wasting these few days. Think coz so long nv really idle whole day liao. so when idle one day, my engine stop and refuse to start. muahaha.

YAHOO!

JJ babies_JJ said he designed them....very kawaii!


Shock by how near we are to the stage! Too bad we didnt bring camera, if not we could have taken a few good shots of photo. We spend most of the time looking at the stage rather than the screen itself :D


Packed stadium---filled to the last row of the upper deck



haha....jj concert is really of gd quality; varieties and gd voice. woah! His singing live sounds like those played on cd and he said he off-pitched in the songs but i didnt notice it. He really really can sing. The end part of 2 songs he didnt manage to put a good ending pose but really must give lotsa credit to his effort. Can see from stage that he tried to stabilise himself after he 'miss' it. Really, it is live and not the dui4 zui3 kind. So, I am pretty impressed by how he sings so well even when dancing! I bet a lot of singers would be off-key while doing that!
By2 was the first guest who went on the stage dancing along with the cao liu song. They sang their song DNA and wwere sent off after a small talk with JJ. Not many support them i suppose from the applause and screams given by the audience. The other thing is the wavering of lightsticks were greatly dminished. This can tell how popular they are, at least in this stadium. The surprise guests (bday gift to jj) were his very own family members. They played instruments; er hu, piano, pi pa for the song zui4 ci4 bi4.It was really heart-warming. JJ stressed that this would be the only concert we can hear this! yep! The 3rd guest is fan wei qi. Her singing was surprisingly good and she sang 2 songs with jj, hei1 bai2 pei4 and small dimple! But i would prefer ah sa singing in small dimple, it sounds nicer. Alas, fan wei qi is cute. JJ thanked her for not wearing heels and being considerate of his height! I think JJ really like saying lame jokes sia. Fan wei qi said it is a blessing to be the guest of JJ concert coz she got a massager. From this, i can tell that jj is really a very considerate person. In the midst of the concert, he said he had a gift for 'us'. He asked us to look at the bottom of our seats to see if there was anything on it. I thought he was kidding becoz u know, from the experience of him telling so many cold jokes, I was dubious of whether it was another joke again. I guess this time he was serious. He said he personally wrote 100 cards and sign off and packaged all these himself. He is really sweet. Very thoughtful of him:)

Overall, I feel that the concert is really worth it! 3 full hours of songs and varieties(he played piano, guiter,beat-box, sing cantonese song- and imitate zhang xue you, sing zi3 dui4 ni3 suo1 in korean for the last part). I think maybe they can improve on displaying the lyrics on the screen though becoz we were struggling to rmb the lyrics of the songs.

P.S.The JJ fans wore white with a mini hat on their head.Their boards are really bright. My eyes hurt from looking at it.

WOOHOO!

i dunthink i have been a good student lately. Have been distracted in class; chatting with friends during lecture. Somehow my mood is just not there. My mood is in graduation ceremony. I have been watching numerous tv shows and taking afternoon naps and sleeping a lot than usual.
Today, i watch bang bang tang sports event and hei she hui celebrating the aries babies; apple, yao yao (apple's sis) and ya tou. It is super funny. I was laughing out loud because of the remarks that were given in the show; sth scandalous and ren2 sheng2 gong1 ji2. Dont be like me, it is nt gd to laugh at the bad remarks but i just cant control my laughter, probably becos i have nv like apple's sis in the 1st place that's y i was agreeing to wat the person said:)
Alas, i have been in good mood though. Ultimately relaxing myself and probably looking 4ward to the jj concert. I love his songs! (yep, often dian his songs in ktv de). I really want to sing a long! yeaH! Cant wait for saturday to come. haha....FYP maybe can discard for a moment and i myself, shall indulge in my hobbies and maybe get back to my fyp after this weekend????

Slacker!

For those who love animes, U wud have yan fu le! haha The anime that i want to recommend is this; Nodame Cantabile! Guess you shd have heard it somewhere b4 rite? be it of the recent suicide news of one of the actors or just the anime itself. It is a musical comedy; Very funny and sometimes illogical. It has 2 seasons one is in japan the other is in Paris! Besides this, kitchen princess manga is a must read manga too....cook those lovely food that can entice u and make you drool. yum yum!

Lately, after the elvin show; dreamcatchers (the ending is nice!), i have been following a taiwan variety show on channel V; hei she hui and bang bang tang. Initially, i dunlike them coz they cant sing and they dunlook gd! how can! but after watching hei tang qi xia zhuan, i subconciously grew fond of them, probably becoz i watch the variety shows too. The most impt element thati feel an idol should have is natural. Maybe that's y i like. haha.

Eagerly waiting for next elvin show!

Any Judgement by human is subjective

This is dedicated to the project that i have undertaken. org project is the worst and most difficult topic to work on. I regretted choosing it coz 1stly is time consuming, meaning spend a lot of time in labs, 2ndly more BT org judge that grade us, yep.I dunwish to pinpt any judge (had 3 org judges)but yah, there is more possibility of getting a strict org judge and i had 2out of 3 for progress and i get info fr reliable source that these 2 gave consistently low marks for all stu.On positive side of thinking, luckily we didnt get all 3 strict ones but i doubt that will happen as the probability shd be very low although getting 2 already low but we still gt 2 didnt we? To the fellowmates who share the same 2 judges as me, yep, u are nt alone, we are too suey:(
Hope we all get btr judges next time (i am nt greedy; even if there is 1 strict judge, i am happy already!).

So ya, heng-suey to get how many strict judges. hard to get zero biasness de!!!!!!

Sian...

Very bored today. Synthesis today was mostly observing again becoz it is a new synthesis step to me but has been done by my sup while i was on study break =( hai!I really do not like to observe but oh well, since this has been done by him and shd have been modified by him, wat can i do. I can only observe and c and p his method of doing it nxt time.haha...my fyp requires too many many many steps! low yield, waste time!
I dreaded presentation but wat to do, haha. Tmr i am going back to sch to see boss and she will comment on my slides.haha see how it goes....coz basically i didnt add more slides; nv include any results in coz lazy to scan in the results and my nmr spectrum is so thick! lazy to screen through lor. Think tmr i will get "reprimanded" by her again. muahaha. Finally duneed to have lunch in wulu lab le! yipee, now i think science canteen is a heaven! haha. I really do sound like i am stranded in an island for a very long time don't I?

Jurong pt

After lab on friday, went to meet up with a sec sch friend, yiwei. I had the shock of my life; 1)i left my thumbdrive in ices 2) Jurong pt looks so different from last time i see it which is one yr ago. Went new york new york to eat. As we were shopping ard, we saw the famous chef Sam outside the chinese gourmet restaurant which i think he work in...actually i didnt notice him de (as usual), but is my friend said he is beside me then i turned to see. muahahaha


i like waffle the best! soft! super nice smelling and taste!!!!!Best waffle ever!

GREAT New yr eve!

With a happp mood, we make our way to the venue where we waited for the countdown event at vivo. We joined as a capacity of jeanette aw's fan club. Haha. Am I a fan? Nope, i didnt watch any of her show b4 but i do know her somehow.Actually i want the countdown tix and cheer for elvin de.

We ate at Kim Gary hongkong cafe; endorsement of Bosco Wong...someone i dunlike. But yah, the food is nt bad; big serving at a acceptable price; abt 14bucks, gt drink, soup, and main dish. I ordered fillet fish as usual. Haha...feel pregnant after eating them.

Cream soup and vegie soup (vegie soup is sweet with tinge of sourness)

Yuan yang with tea (strong scent of coffee which taste like tea---the siapness)

Fish baked rice (different from swensens-western taste, coz more tomatoes and they added egg and herbal leaf that makes it tinge of sourness)


It is super fun!!! this is the 1st time i went to countdown. As a fan, u are really in front. U can cheer for ur idols. Really, they look really beautiful and shuai up close. haha.... It is a truly enjoyable night! Jeanette Aw nt bad; elvin, nat and dai yang tian are shuai. but elvin is more shuai....haha!!!! Me and Hx cheer for elvin and dai yang tian until voice super hoarse. Dunno why no one cheer for elvin, only we 2 madly shouted! His smile is so dazzling! PP, hx and me cheer for dai yang tian, he nt bad arh. Shy, reserved, tall and quite shuai. nt bad nt bad.

Most imptly, this time, we have the lightstick! it is essential to have it around! haha. for u to sway along with the music and songs! I gt the pink one, whereas hx and pp gt the blue one. Btw pink light stick is nt as bright, somehow it looks dim. yah.

Oh yah, we have enrolled automatically into jeanette's fan club coz we take part in this event. And i get to know a person in this event. We exchanged phone numbers; she is in jeanette fan club too

*those who want to watch the encore of the countdown party at vivo...can watch @ 2.30pm on channel8 :)